A virtual baby book for all who love our little Lily Jade and a place to gather my thoughts on the crazy journey that is motherhood.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Can we handle the truth?
People constantly ask me what I think of motherhood and given that I've never been a good liar, I answer them honestly. While I do love Lily to bits, I find motherhood to be very challenging on the good days and downright awful on the bad days. It is much easier when Scott is home to help out or when I'm out with friends but I find it pretty tough to be on my own on a daily basis. Granted, I get lonely at home by myself and I know that factors in to how I feel about motherhood but I never imagined that it would be this hard to be a parent. So, I feel compelled to tell people that I find it difficult to be a mother and am still coming to terms with what motherhood means for me. Inevitably, people respond with "well, it is hard but it's so rewarding!". Yes, I agree that it is amazing to have a first-hand view of how a human being develops but I wouldn't always describe motherhood as 'rewarding'. I wonder if people are uncomfortable with the truth that I am presenting to them - I'm so far behind on housework and feel like I will never catch up, our household to-do list is longer than our mortgage documents, I have a body that looks nothing like it did before I got pregnant, and I'm constantly sleep deprived. It's incredibly challenging to entertain a baby all day long and it's really hard to be out of the adult world. I miss my work and the freedom that was my life pre-baby. Seeing my baby girl smile and making her laugh provides me with a great deal of happiness but it does come at a price. I certainly don't regret having Lily but being a mother is much harder than I was expecting. Are we ready, as a society, to accept that not every woman loves every minute of motherhood?
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